Monday, June 11, 2012

You Better Work.........

Hello All,
I know it has been a while, but remember last time I posted and I was all perfect perfect? Well, that has all gone to (bandster) hell in a handbasket.

I have been STRUGGLING!!!!!!

Ever since I could move onto soft foods and beyond I have been up and down. I do pretty well until I get to the weekend. Just call me Elsie, cuz this heifer will graze all day. The weekend of Memorial day I gained six pounds. I was able to lose it by the end of the week, but then the vicious cycle started all over again and I gained 8 pounds the following weekend.

I am ashamed.

This past weekend I got back on track and even started exercising. Guess what? I saw a new low.....221!!!!!! I am so excited to be back on track. I keep thinking of how much I could have lost had I been diligent, but no one is perfect. I just have to keep on fighting the good fight. Please wish me luck.

The new job is going well, however, I am no longer able to keep up with blogging while at work :o(
Your lives have been busy! I am trying to keep up with you, but I have not been commenting much. I am still a few days behind.

I went to my WLS support group tonight and was hoping to see Robyn, Meghan, and the ever elusive Cat. Oh well, maybe next time ladies :o) I talked to a lady considering the band and it was weird being on the other side. I also got a smidge jealous of the bypass people...... 84 pounds since March? Jesus, Mary and Joseph!!!!!!!!! I know I made the right choice for myself, but those numbers are unbelievable.

I have set a mini goal for myself. I want to be in onderland by my birthday on July 31st. That is 21 pounds in 7 weeks, or 3 pounds a week. It is doable, but I am going to have to work it harder than RuPaul.

I have also been thinking about sending my husband to his HS reunion on his own. I think we need a breather. I haven't talked to him about it yet, but I think we need a weekend free of each other. We've been snippy with each other and I need to miss him again.... does that make sense? He used to work overnights for his job, and that time apart worked wonders. I will keep you posted on what we do. The reunion is at the end of the month.


  1. Hang in there..I really feel for you. Michelle is going through it too. I am not looking forward to this first month or two post surgery!

  2. You can do it! Get back on track and refocus. Try not to compare yourself to the bypassers - each person has a different journey. What matters is making sure you are healthy and happy. xxxx

  3. Reggie thanks for posting and posting the TRUTH because that it what keeps me sane. I have been struggling for the past 10 - 15 days. I lost 16.5 lbs pre-op and I am not shitting you not 1 damn 1lb have I lost since the day I came home from surgery. Shit girl you know you cannot even eat for days. I dont know what is going on with me.

    I wish you the best to stay on track. When you see food you want, think the sooner you say NO the faster you can get to your goal and then maybe...just maybe..... you will be able to be a bit more "flexible" with you eating and lean to maintain.

    Please try and keep up with the blogging .....

  4. PS I have not been cheating YET!!!!!! just saying.... I've been possesed by the FATT DEVIL. He wants me.

  5. Bandster hell is the WORST! You'll get through it and you'll start being filled up soon. Don't be hard on yourself about the weekends, you've recognised the problem. You will do just fine! x

  6. Stalling once you start mushies is not uncommon. Sometimes I think it is because you are eating too low of calories......
    I didn't realize it was group night until around 9 AM..... I am focusing so completely on work right now that I seem to be forgetting about everything else.

  7. This is probably the hardest part of the whole process...before you've got good restriction, can eat everything in sight and just have to white knuckle it before your fill. You're doing great! A new low and new motivation! Keep it up!

  8. Sorry, I had a dinner that night for work, hopefully next month! :) Bandster hell sucks! I went through it, once you start getting fills, things will even out. Even now, this past week has been hellish for me. This fill has been wonderful in terms of fullness and how fast I get full. But, it's also very challenging, it's like re-learning it all over again. It's never ending, but just remember why you got the surgery, I remind myself every day. And I'm pretty sure I gained this past weekend, I'm scared to do my weigh this weekend. :/

  9. Ahh that sucks, I know how you feel. I'm a total cow too... lol Have you tried just having a bunch of cups of sugarfree jello in the fridge on the weekend? That way you can have a treat without doing too much calorie damage. There's also those skinny cow ice cream sticks, but I'm not sure on the calorie content of those...

    Either way, you know what the problem is so I have no doubt you'll put your big girl panties on and tackle it. I am doing the same myself these days, although it took me long enough.

    On the bright side, at least we know you can drop 6 - 8 lbs in one week! :)

  10. hello, new follower here.
    hang in there. just take it every day, one day at a time. i'm about to enter the land of the bandsters as well. my band-date is next tuesday, the 26th. scared and excited!!!