Friday, September 14, 2012

10 Things Thursday....on Friday

Yeah, I know it's Friday, but I have a list of things to share with you all. Thank you Laura Belle for TTT!

1. I had my 3rd fill on Tuesday. My doctor was 1 hour and 20 minutes late, grrrr! I was so anxious to get the heck on with my day that I never asked what the fill level was. I know on the 1st fill he put in 3ccs and the 2nd fill was 1cc. I go back in 4 weeks. I only lost 5.2 pounds since the previous fill on 8/13. I am feeling like I am almost at the green zone.

2. I am a convert! I had never watched Grey's until about a month ago when I started watching the series on Nefl1x and I am HOOKED. I must say that it has been an emotional rollercoaster watching them back to back. Poor George!!!!!

3. I have not exercised as much as I should. I need to stop letting others distract me from what is important to me.

4. I started classes this week. I am getting an Associates in Computer Information Systems. I know absolutely NOTHING about computers, but it is important to me to add this to my resume to make myself more marketable. Maybe I will learn how to do some cool stuff with my blog.

5. Someone at work brought in cupcakes at work today. Delicious gourmet cupcakes from an awesome bakery here in my area. I helped myself to a mouthwatering red velvet cupcake. It was a little smaller than a normal size cupcake and I COULD NOT finish it. I let it sit on my desk for a few hours before I finally threw it away.
6. This brings me to all the other junk at work. I don't think I ever wrote about MnM guy.  This guy that I work with has two HUGE jars of MnMs on his desk.... one is peanut and the other is plain. Sorry that I have no picture for you, but imagine a large pickle jar filled with sweet candy coated chocolaty goodness. I try to tell myself that they have all been contaminated by the various employees visiting his desk, but the second I hear him pouring fresh ones into the jar, I have to force myself to stay in my chair so I don't grab two handfuls, stuff my face and feel ashamed the rest of the day. Sometimes I feel like I am being paid to resist this temptation. He is only 3 feet away!!!!!!
7. My husband's birthday was this week. He is not big into celebrating birthdays or holidays, but I am. This time I decided to keep it very low key. I didn't even make him a cake. He barely noticed.
8. I have been hiding 4 pairs of shoes in my car. My husband has been getting on me about how much I use the Macy's card. Damn them and their one day sale.
9. NSV alert! I have on my favorite pair of jeans today, but it may be the last time I am able to wear them because they are finally too big!
10. It's Friday!!!! Have a good weekend everyone!

Monday, September 3, 2012

It's a wonderful thing..... finally get up and get your sweat on.

I finally did it people! I exercised and I liked it

I feel glorious! I really do. I know that the Zumba workout on Kinect is no 1ronman competition, but I did something that required me to sweat and I got some bonus points when I completed it. I am all about gold stars people. I want to keep this up. One day down and a lifetime to go.

In case your wondering, yeah, this is my first time working out since I said I do it everyday on my last post. I want to have this feeling tomorrow too. I want to have a whole blog full of sweaty pictures.

Have a good night. I hope you all enjoyed the long weekend.... if you had one.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Cracking and Stretching

You know how in the movies (or in your head) the 'writer' gears up to begin writing an epic story? I mean, they're cracking knuckles, stretching their necks, and rolling their shoulders (I know you all did just that)? Well, that's how I feel right now. Thank you Sarah G. for checking in on me. It has been since mid June that I've posted of followed blogs...... Sorry y'all. I logged in, glanced at my dashboard and one of the first blog's I see is AJ telling folks how to unfollow a blog, lol! Geez, I hope I made it back in time. All I can say is that I am happy to be back in blogland and I am ready to tell you all about what I have been up to. Man, it's so easy to fall off of here and let life pull you in another direction.

Today I am 216. That is only 22 pounds since surgery way back on May 7th. I am feeling good in my 216 pound body, but I know I could be feeling SO much better. In all the time that I have been away from my blog, I am embarassed to say that I have barely exercised and my eating (portion size and nutritional value) is just so so.

Listen when they say that you still have to do the work!

I am not a stupid woman, I know this. My problem is that I am a slacker. Damn, I want to delete the previous sentence so bad, but I am forcing myself to be honest and it is important that I put it out there. I know all the rules but have put in almost no effort to make my band work to its fullest capacity. Feel free to begin the flogging :o( I am not calling myself a failure, or blaming my band. I am just calling a spade a spade.

I need to commit to an action plan. I have decided to come up with a challenge for myself, but first, let me tell you how my band has been doing....

Last time I blogged, at the end of June, I was going in for my first fill. I think the date was 6/26. That was about 7 weeks after banding. I was given 3ccs in my 10cc band and I weighed in at 227. Up until that first fill I was trying to keep to eating 1-1/2 cups of food and had little restriction. After that fill I lost a few and had gotten all the way down to 220.

I had my second fill on August 13th. I was back up to 224 and given 1cc. My surgeon told me he was disappointed in my progress and wanted me down 10lbs by my next appointment  on September 11th. I was feeling very good restriction for about a week and a half. I still have restriction, but it is not the same. Since the last fill I have not exercised. I have only ever had a few minor stuck episodes and I have never PBd or experienced any heartburn. I don't drink anything carbonated, and I am also able to eat everything.

I am pretty sure that is it about my band. I need to be treating it better than I have been, considering I went through a pretty damn painful surgery for it. OK...So what am I going to challenge myself to do? I am going to challenge myself to be more active. Starting tonight I am going to do at least 1/2 hour of exercise everyday. 


WooooSaaaaah.... I need some theme music to get me going. I can't think of anything better than Eye of the Tiger right now. Everybody get your Rocky on with me!!!!  I so want to be like you hardcore bandsters who sweat your asses off. I want to be 210 by my doctor appointment (213 with clothes I think) so he doesn't chalk me up to a failure.

IT Tiger

FYI.... I missed you guys.

Friday, June 22, 2012

I am getting a fill!!!

Thank you guys for your advice to call to get my first fill moved up. I just got off the phone and my appointment is on Tuesday! I am absolutely giddy :0)

I will keep you posted. Keep on keeping on everyone.

Ta Ta

Happy Friday

Hey everybody! I missed you :0)
I really new to work in some time for my blog. I have found blogging (reading and posting) to be therapeutic for many of us. I also know it helps keep me accountable. Last time I blogged I wrote about my struggles as a new bandster. Guess what, I am still struggling and am holding at 224.

I am not going to sweat it though. This is a process and I am going to get through it. I really feel like I am dieting right now. I can definitely eat more than 1 cup, but I try very hard not to. I usually stay within 1100-1200 calories a day, but I have found that carbs are the enemy 👿

Carbs are the cause of my weekend gains and during the week when I usually have very little carbs, I drop the weight quickly. I am so tired of this back and forth.

My first fill is not until July 3rd. That is 8 weeks after surgery! I want to call and see if it can be pushed up, but I don't want to sound desperate 😣 because I AM! Remember I just said I wasn't going to sweat it? I lied.

I have been exercising at least 4 times a week. It is usually a cardio workout and when I started I could barely get through, but now I feel much stronger. I still haven't been bitten by the exercise love bug, but I do it cuz I have to. Speaking of exercise, I have an NSV to report. I am able to fit into a sports bra that had been so small I couldn't get it on. I am not large chested but I have quite a wide back. I guess it's the little things that keep us going.

Puh-Leez send me some happy skinny thoughts. Have a great weekend everyone.

Monday, June 11, 2012

You Better Work.........

Hello All,
I know it has been a while, but remember last time I posted and I was all perfect perfect? Well, that has all gone to (bandster) hell in a handbasket.

I have been STRUGGLING!!!!!!

Ever since I could move onto soft foods and beyond I have been up and down. I do pretty well until I get to the weekend. Just call me Elsie, cuz this heifer will graze all day. The weekend of Memorial day I gained six pounds. I was able to lose it by the end of the week, but then the vicious cycle started all over again and I gained 8 pounds the following weekend.

I am ashamed.

This past weekend I got back on track and even started exercising. Guess what? I saw a new low.....221!!!!!! I am so excited to be back on track. I keep thinking of how much I could have lost had I been diligent, but no one is perfect. I just have to keep on fighting the good fight. Please wish me luck.

The new job is going well, however, I am no longer able to keep up with blogging while at work :o(
Your lives have been busy! I am trying to keep up with you, but I have not been commenting much. I am still a few days behind.

I went to my WLS support group tonight and was hoping to see Robyn, Meghan, and the ever elusive Cat. Oh well, maybe next time ladies :o) I talked to a lady considering the band and it was weird being on the other side. I also got a smidge jealous of the bypass people...... 84 pounds since March? Jesus, Mary and Joseph!!!!!!!!! I know I made the right choice for myself, but those numbers are unbelievable.

I have set a mini goal for myself. I want to be in onderland by my birthday on July 31st. That is 21 pounds in 7 weeks, or 3 pounds a week. It is doable, but I am going to have to work it harder than RuPaul.

I have also been thinking about sending my husband to his HS reunion on his own. I think we need a breather. I haven't talked to him about it yet, but I think we need a weekend free of each other. We've been snippy with each other and I need to miss him again.... does that make sense? He used to work overnights for his job, and that time apart worked wonders. I will keep you posted on what we do. The reunion is at the end of the month.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Thank you for TTT

I've been writing posts in my head for days. I must have been subconsciously waiting for TTT to share all that has been going on :o)

1. I had my follow-up appointment on Tuesday and have been upgraded to mushies....YAY!!!!! Still not cleared for exercise though (except for walking) which kind of sucks. Remember how I said I thought my surgeon was cute? Well, he was pretty flirty at the appointment. I am unsure if he was actually flirting or if that is just his personality. Robyn, maybe you can weigh in on this. It was definitely an eyebrow raiser.

2. I think I exaggerated about being in Bandster Hell. As soon as I progressed to mushie foods I began to feel absolutely fine. I still deal with a little grief when measuring out my bandster sized portion (it's hard adjusting) but I am always satisfied with my meal.... Thank you Jesus!

3. I had my first stuck episode this morning. I was eating a scrambled egg to fast while talking to my husband about the neighbors at the end of the block and BOOM! I felt like I could not breathe. By the way, I was eating this egg in the truck on the way to work. It was such a claustrophobic feeling. Ugh, it was horrible. It passed in about 30 seconds, but that was 29 seconds too long for me. Lesson learned, until next time.

4. Tomorrow is my last day at my current job. I start my new job on Tuesday.

5. I just read Tina's post about having a goal that involved shopping at particular stores. I can so totally relate. I feel like my personal style is not available at the stores where I have to shop. I am still on my self imposed shopping hiatus. I will admit that I have slipped up a few times, but I am mostly sticking to the plan. I am a shopaholic and cannot even window shop without buying something. I wonder how long I can hold out? I plan to keep my purse closed until Onderland.... that is 23 pounds away.

6. I have an exception to #5. Remember a few months ago I said my hubs 20 year high school reunion is at the end of June? This event will excuse me from my shopping ban for this event only. I do have a dress in my closet that is a possibility. However, it has been almost 3 years since I was able to get into it. Here is a pic. I was feeling pretty damn hot in this dress and would love to get back into it. I think I was about 210 in this photo. The dress was a 16 misses and TIGHT.

My aunt Sandy, me and my mom.

7. I have been trying my best to make good food choices. I think of how much I am allowed to have and do my best to get the most nutritional value out of my meal. I find I have the hardest time when I am out running errands. I used to always stop by a drive thru and grab a few things off the value menu. Now I drive by...... slowly. I am proud of my self for resisting that temptation. Let's hope I can keep it up.

8. I really really need to clean out my closet. I never properly put away my winter clothes and everything seems to be in piles. I hope to be able to devote some time to getting this in order.

9. I want some wine. Now.

10. Can't stop thinking about wine.

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11. My first fill is on July 3rd. That seems really really far away.