Y'all are the bestest!
Thank you so much for all of your support from my last post. I appreciate it very very much.
I spoke with my mom last night. She is doing OK. She told me that there was a 9 year old little girl in the treatment center with her. I cannot fathom what that little girl must be going through. I hate to hear about children suffering. I am not sure how common eating disorders are in young children, but I know that my mother's case is not the norm. This is her 3rd treatment center in 1 1/2 years and she is by far, always the oldest at 53. What baffles me is how well people who suffer from eating disorders are able to hide it, especially if you are not a walking skeleton.
My mother has been suffering from bulemia and anorexia on and off for over 20 years. However, the last 2 years have been the worst. She is a diabetic and also has COPD. When she doesn't eat she is unable to effectively control her sugar and this leads to her passing out. This was happening very often about two years ago. She was severely depressed and my sisters were treating her like crap. At that time her struggle was very evident. This time however, I feel like it crept up on me. I thought all was well, but it wasn't. My mom doesn't look starved and I thought she was taking care of herself. It is hard for me to comprehend why this keeps being an issue for her, but I will continue to stand by her.
When she told me last week that she needed help, I immediately felt as if she had let me down. I didn't tell her this, and I later beat myself up about being so selfish. Now I am thankful that she told me before something happened while she was alone with my daughter. I don't know when she will be coming home, but I am going to visit her this weekend. I hate that she can suffer alone and no one is the wiser. I hope she gets better. Please keep her in your thoughs and prayers.
In other news, I came to work with my shirt inside out today. The crazy thing is, when I checked myself out in the mirror this morning, I thought I looked pretty cute, hahaha.